Lonely Place In The Open Space

今天是个值得纪念的日子，我从来未尝有过这种感觉，也感谢老天对我的眷顾吧，让我完整了我的生活。

写在这里也是让更少的人看到，以后看起来也会觉得很有趣吧。

心情是非常复杂，觉得很可气，我受伤了，心里有股气，想用眼泪释放出来，但是哭不出来，多喝点水，等下可能就出来了。

我被一个人要求做男朋友，然后又要求分手，1星期之内的事。很搞笑，小弟是个很会受伤的人，这样的事情肯定受伤的体无完肤。

安慰自己没什么，也许在遇到Miss Right之前真的要遇到很多Miss Wrong。

嘿嘿，这么点小事我也要写出来发泄，真是很可笑的。

也真是不巧，这种事情遇到在考试期间，多少有点影响，幸亏我适应能力强。

好了，到此为止，我已经有过两个女朋友了，经验也够多了，也许我应该往高点的人群找找，一个人的路不好走啊。

最后小感叹一下：男人其实比女人更懂得珍惜。

上星期去了约克

傍晚的时候有点不舒服，就早早的睡下了，在英国生病代价很大，可是很不划算的，昂贵的费用可以让你有打道回府的念头。睡到凌清晨5点的时候被窗外的汽车叫醒，就躺在床上，盯着从窗帘缝中射在天花板的灯光，开始胡思乱想，我很喜欢在黑暗中用这种方式浪费时间。每每这种时候，第一想到肯定是家，一个人第一次离开呆了20多年的家，而且距离这么远，时间这么长，能不想家么。目前为止，在我心目中，还没有什么东西可以替代家的位置，以后应该也不会有。父亲的做菜手艺，母亲的没完唠叨，每想到深处，总是会让我不小心掉出几行眼泪。飞机场通过安检后，我就不停回头搜索在人群中的父母，想再多看看几眼，虽然不是什么生死离别，当他们的身影从我视线中消失，我就产生一种强烈的失落感，对着同学，再也不能掩饰内心的软弱，泪水是难免的。到学校后看了父亲在网上给我写的信，得知母亲回去后大哭了一场，我心灵窗户的城池再次失守。同学告诉我母子的感情很深，也许真是的，我的情绪总是随着母亲的波动。有人说我太依赖父母，人总是要独立出来的，怎么说呢，我就是个恋家的人吧。
想得累了，我坐起来，拉开窗帘，外面淡淡的光暖暖地照亮了我的小屋子，轻轻把窗子推出一个小缝，一股冷风就迫不及待地就钻了进来，英国的夜是很冷的，比看起来要冷。宁波这几天却很热，不知道家里的那株一叶草怎么样了。
我就是不会写什么文字，虽然满含感情，就是流露不出来。
除了父母，我接触最多的就是我的ex-gf了，她是个很好的女孩，我觉得我亏欠她挺多的。一年前，不知道什么原因，我们走到了一起，那时候日子是那么的滋润，我知道了生活的另外一个意义。随着时间的推移，我们之间也产生过很多矛盾，闹过好几次别扭，但是最后总是我主动认错，结果重归于好，因为我在乎。但是出国前的那两条短信‘感情会淡的’，‘分就分了吧’让我很恼火，我最不喜欢就是她随便的态度，那次我没有像以前那样，而是下了狠心，也许真的是很残忍的。虽然分手了，但现在我们还是保持着联系，经常联系，算是很好的朋友。在接下来的很长一段时间里，我应该不会再去考虑感情方面的事情了。
夜已经散去了吗？还是路灯太过明亮。

it has been a week since i arrived in the UK, it is a totally different country from China, i m kind of excited to these new stuff. However, the goods here seem to be a bit expensive, especially some vegetables and fruits, that makes me down cos i cannot live without such things. after several days dealing with shopping and school things, i feel fairly tired, there is not a time that i hardly fall asleep in the bus.

 

there are many guys i wanna thank, they r really helpful, i m glad they r with me, the life is sepicial due to them.

 

 

 

 

 

She put him out like the burnin´ end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin´ to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I´ll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
(Sing lullaby)
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby